Doctrine & Covenants: EPISODE 14 – Easter – Part 1

Hank Smith: 00:01 Welcome to followHIM, a weekly podcast dedicated to helping individuals and families with their Come, Follow Me study. I’m Hank Smith.

John Bytheway: 00:09 And I’m John Bytheway.

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Hank Smith: 00:18 My friends, welcome to another episode of followHIM. My name is Hank Smith. I’m here with my incredible co-host, John Bytheway. Welcome, John.

John Bytheway: 00:29 You’re talking about me? Oh, that’s-

Hank Smith: 00:30 Yes.

John Bytheway: 00:31 That’s very kind. Thank you.

Hank Smith: 00:32 John, can you introduce our friend?

John Bytheway: 00:35 Yes, we have John Hilton III with us. And Hank, we’ve known John for years. I think you may have known him longer than I have.

Dr. John Hilton III: 00:45 I’m going to just pop in. So I think I actually have technically known you longer because when I was a BYU student, I came knocking on your office door at BYU saying, “Do you have any tips for how I could write a book or [crosstalk 00:00:57]?” I’m sure you had hundreds of people like me, but you treated me so kindly. You were so nice and polite. Yeah.

Dr. John Hilton III: 01:05 Anyway, so just throwing that out there. John, I’ve been grateful for you for decades.

John Bytheway: 01:10 Oh, you’re so nice. I’m glad that you remember me being a nice guy.

Hank Smith: 01:15 Yeah, I was going to say, when I did that in college, John said, “Get out of here! Why do you kids keep bothering me?”

John Bytheway: 01:27 That’s great.

John Bytheway: 01:28 John Hilton III was born in San Francisco and grew up in Seattle. He served a mission in Denver and received a bachelor’s degree from Brigham Young University, where he met his wife, Lani, and they have six children.

John Bytheway: 01:41 Now this is the fun part. They have lived in Boise, Boston, Mexico, Miami, China, and Jerusalem. John has a master’s degree from Harvard and a PhD from BYU, both in Education. He is currently a Religion pProfessor at BYU. John has written several books, including The Founder of Our Peace and Considering the Cross. And I think those two are the most recent. Considering the Cross just came out.

John Bytheway: 02:09 John’s biggest claim to fame was in high school, he won a pizza eating contest by eating 22 pieces of pizza.

Dr. John Hilton III: 02:16 I mean, if you didn’t feel like there’s credibility here, I hope that sealed it. In full disclosure, they were small-ish pieces of pizza. But still, it’s something to be proud of.

John Bytheway: 02:27 That’s good. And John, you mentioned Jerusalem. That is an experience to sit there and to sing, “There is a green hill far away,” and to look out the window and say, “Oh, it’s not that far away.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 02:36 “It’s right there.”

John Bytheway: 02:37 Yeah. It’s just amazing. It’s hard to get through the words when you’re right there looking over old Jerusalem. And you got to experience that for a year.

Dr. John Hilton III: 02:48 Yeah, it was beautiful. Wonderful.

Hank Smith: 02:50 That’s fantastic.

Hank Smith: 02:50 Now, before we go any further, I have to tell a couple of stories. And these are just important stories.

John Bytheway: 02:58 That’s so unlike you, Hank.

Hank Smith: 02:59 There is no one as brilliant as John Hilton. He’s so great they made three of him. His actual name is John Hilton III.

Hank Smith: 03:09 I’ve known John for … Oh, it’s probably been 15 years. We went to a Subway to get lunch and no one on the other side of the counter spoke English and I’m trying to order. And all of a sudden, my friend, John Hilton, starts speaking Spanish to these workers. And I said, “Well, how come you speak Spanish? You didn’t serve a Spanish speaking mission.” And he was like, because it was a revelation to him, he was like, “I know.” And I said, “Well, how come you know Spanish?” And he said, “I wanted to learn Spanish, so I learned it.” It was probably within that year sometime, I overhear him speaking Chinese with somebody, and I said, “Wait, what? You speak Chinese?” And he said, “Yeah, I wanted to speak Chinese, so I learned Chinese.” And sometimes someone might say, “Well, intelligent people don’t believe in God, intelligent people don’t … ” Whatever. Fill in the blank. They don’t do the whole faith/religion thing. Find me someone as intelligent as John Hilton III, and we can have that discussion, because he is not only intelligent, he is kind, he is everything. And his wife, Lani, is even better.

Hank Smith: 04:24 So John, do you feel like I did that justice? Did I overkill that?

Dr. John Hilton III: 04:30 You know, one thing that you left off, Hank, is that as we walked out of that Subway, there was someone who was asking for money and you gave them some money and treated them kindly. And that’s something I always remember. That’s something about your character. Some people work on learning languages and other people just develop Christlike attributes. So a little something for everyone.

Hank Smith: 04:48 Yeah. I was just looking for ways to look good. I actually planted that guy outside. I’m like, “You stay here.”

Hank Smith: 04:57 John, let’s talk. This week’s lesson is a little bit different for Come, Follow Me. We’re going to step away from the Doctrine and Covenants for a little bit and talk about Easter. Talk about the Atonement and Resurrection of Jesus Christ.

Hank Smith: 05:13 John, you just wrote a book on this. In fact, this is why I invited you on the podcast today. You just wrote a book on this called Considering the Cross: How Calvary Connects Us with Christ. Maybe let’s just start there, John, and see where we go. I know that this book was a couple of years for you, just thinking about it and then doing the research. Tell me what spurred you on to this and what you learned.

Dr. John Hilton III: 05:39 So when I was in the Jerusalem Center, I was one day talking with one of my colleagues. And this is kind of like BYU Religion Professor fun talk, where we’re like, “So what do you do when you teach the Atonement of Jesus Christ? How do you teach that?” And as we were discussing this, one of my colleagues said, “Why do you think in the Church we always focus almost exclusively on Gethsemane as the place where Christ atoned for our sins?” And I just thought, “I don’t know, because that’s what the scriptures say probably?”

Dr. John Hilton III: 06:10 And I realized, in that moment, that whenever I taught a lesson … So this week we’re probably all studying maybe different episodes in the life of Christ, in this last week, we’re probably focusing on the Last Supper and  Gethsemane. And I realized that when I did these kinds of things, I tended to jump straight past the crucifixion and go to the resurrection. And I came across a quote from President James E. Faust. He said, “Any increase in our understanding of the Savior’s atoning sacrifice draws us closer to him.” And that really stood out to me. Any increase in any aspect of Christ’s Atonement is going to pull us closer to him.

Dr. John Hilton III: 06:49 And I realized that, so to speak, there was some low hanging fruit with respect to Calvary and the crucifixion. This was just an area of Christ’s Atonement that I had kind of glided by. And as I started to investigate, I found that there are scriptures that talk about Jesus Christ suffering for our sins in Gethsemane; there’s one in the Book of Mormon and one in the Doctrine and Covenants. So two total. There’s, at the same time, more than 50 passages of scripture that talk about Jesus Christ dying for our sins. And we’ve seen them over and over again. Just this year, in the Doctrine and Covenants, it’s in Section 18, it’s in Section 21, we’ll see it in a week or so in Section 35. It’s just over and over again, Jesus Christ emphasizes, “I was crucified for the sins of the world.” And so when I realized that, I thought, “Wow, there’s kind of a mismatch between what I’ve been focused on and what the scriptures are teaching.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 07:42 And so Anthony Sweat, who you know and has been on the podcast, he and I did a survey of some students at BYU, and we asked about 800 students, “Although Christ’s Atonement was a process, where would you say Jesus mostly atoned for our sins?” In the first round we gave students two choices, either at Gethsemane or Calvary, and 88% of students selected Gethsemane. So someone said, “Hey, that’s kind of unfair. You should have given them a third choice of equally in Gethsemane and Calvary.'” So we surveyed a separate group of about 800 students, and same question, “Although Christ’s Atonement was a process, where would you say he mostly atoned for our sins? Gethsemane, Calvary or equally in Gethsemane and Calvary?” And even with the choice of ” Equally in Gethsemane and Calvary,” 58% of people said Gethsemane only.

Dr. John Hilton III: 08:35 So this was a signal to me that I’m not the only person who’s tended to focus almost exclusively, or maybe primarily, on Gethsemane. But as I dived into … You know, we’re so focused on Joseph Smith this year with our Come, Follow Me. Joseph Smith, actually, in his writings and sermons, he never talks about Jesus Christ suffering for our sins in Gethsemane. He only mentions Gethsemane one time, and that’s in the context of Christ doing the will of his Father. But there’s more than 30 times when he talks about Christ being crucified, and several of those are specifically about him dying for our sins.

Hank Smith: 09:14 I think in my experience as a teacher, and maybe you’d say the same thing, John Bytheway, maybe you’d say this as well, is that during the course of a class on the Savior’s life, I am building and building and building to this moment, right? I’m building to this Atonement moment. And for me personally, I’ve just kind of realized this as you’ve been talking, I will hit that moment in Gethsemane, and I will talk about Calvary, but it’s on the downhill side. It’s on the, “We’ve hit our moment and now we’re hitting maybe post-climactic moment.” And I think I do teach the Calvary, but it’s on that … I don’t know, that other side of, “Okay, we’ve already hit our big moment.”

Hank Smith: 09:59 Would you say that other teachers do that? Or is it just me? This podcast has ended up being All The Things Hank Does Wrong Podcast. But do you feel like you used to do that as well maybe?

John Bytheway: 10:13 I think what John said is right. When we learn the meaning of Gethsemane, that’s olive press, and as John said, okay, we’ve got it in Luke that he bled at every pore, and that’s it. Right? And then in Restoration scripture, we have it in King Benjamin, in Mosiah 3, and Doctrine and Covenant, Section 19. And so maybe because of that, we feel some, “Oh, look what we have in Restoration scripture that’s only mentioned once in the Book of Luke, is that he bled from every pore.”

John Bytheway: 10:46 And I love what you’re doing, John, with suffering for our sins, dying for our sins. And yet we don’t separate those too much because it was all part of the same process. Is that fair?

Dr. John Hilton III: 10:59 Yeah. And you just mentioned separating it out. I think that’s maybe a common misunderstanding. People will say, “Well, Jesus suffered for our sins in Gethsemane, so he overcame spiritual death in Gethsemane and then overcame physical death on the cross.” And Elder Gerald Lund calls that a “doctrinal error,” that to try to separate it out like that just isn’t accurate.

John Bytheway: 11:19 Yeah, it was all the Atonement. Can we say that? The Atonement didn’t happen here or there, but it was all. I mean, I’m, in my mind, remembering, and you’ve done so much research on this, I think it was Elder Bruce R. McConkie saying, “The horrors of Gethsemane returned on the cross.” Is that accurate?

Dr. John Hilton III: 11:38 Yeah. So Elder McConkie did say that. And even more recently, President Nelson, he describes all of the things Christ experienced in Gethsemane, and then he said that, “All this suffering was intensified as Christ was cruelly crucified on Calvary’s cross.”

Hank Smith: 11:55 That’s an important quote there, John. I had not heard that. So to go back to what you were saying, I do this. And this is what I recognize. This was kind of the turning point for me. It was to say, “I am. I’m building up and Gethsemane is the climax.” Without doubt, that’s…

Dr. John Hilton III: 12:12 Yeah.

Hank Smith: 12:13 I go back and look at my PowerPoints from like five years ago when I was teaching, and that was for sure the case. And I’m sure that you and I, and John, we’re not alone.

John Bytheway: 12:22 And I don’t want to say to any teacher listening, you did it wrong. Let’s just say, “Hey, let’s improve.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 12:28 Yeah.

John Bytheway: 12:29 Let’s improve. That was a great method at the time, but let’s improve. Let’s adjust.

Hank Smith: 12:33 And to be clear, it’s not saying that Gethsemane isn’t important. Gethsemane is supremely important. It’s just there’s maybe another aspect of the Savior’s Atonement that we haven’t fully appreciated or studied.

John Bytheway: 12:45 So John, you’ve talked a lot, just with me personally, about the cross itself, that somehow, maybe there’s a tie in, maybe there’s not, you can correct me, that we don’t focus on Calvary as a doctrine because we don’t focus on the cross as a symbol. Maybe we shy away from the doctrine of what happens on the cross because of the fact that we, as Latter-day Saints, have shied away from the cross as a symbol. Tell me about what you’ve found there.

Dr. John Hilton III: 13:17 I mean, to me, it makes me think of a parable from Elder Packer, where he talks about how a merchant found a precious pearl, and it was so amazing he wanted everyone to see it. So he made this great box to showcase the pearl. And when everyone came to watch it, he was so sad because they focused on the box instead of the pearl. And in a way, I think you can say that the crucifixion of Jesus Christ is the pearl and the cross as a symbol is a box. And maybe some people adore and worship the cross as a symbol, and that’s not good, and maybe some of us have completely shied away from the image of the cross and said, “Oh, that’s bad. I don’t want any part of that.” And as a result, we don’t look at the pearl, the crucifixion of Jesus Christ. So, I mean, just a quick backstory to that; to be honest with you, what I didn’t know a couple of years ago is that, in the 1820s, as the Restoration is taking shape, Catholicism is not a prevalent religion in the United States. In fact, in the Palmyra area, there’s no Catholic churches. The Joseph Smith story, he says, “The Methodists, the Presbyterians.” He never says, “What about the Catholics?” It’s just not on his radar. It’s not part of the cultural context. What I didn’t know is that, in the 1820s, the cross was primarily a Catholic symbol. Protestant churches like Baptists, Presbyterians, Methodists, they didn’t use the cross as a symbol. And that was going back to the Protestant/Catholic split off a couple of hundred years earlier.

Hank Smith: 14:43 So they don’t want to be seen as Catholic so they’re not using the cross.

Dr. John Hilton III: 14:46 Correct. So as Joseph Smith is kind of making decisions about building Church buildings and, “Would you put a cross on it?” That would be a Catholic thing. It wasn’t a Christian thing. And so that was an interesting data point for me, was to see that there’s a culture that our Church is growing out of, American Protestantism, is the cultural milieu that Joseph Smith is surrounded with and that doesn’t have the image of a cross. But there’s massive Catholic immigration to America in the 1840s through ’60s and that led to Christians broadly in America adopting the cross as a symbol of their faith.

Dr. John Hilton III: 15:24 So by the 1870s, you have well-documented statements saying something like the cross is no longer denominational, it’s a Christian symbol. And even amongst Latter-day Saints during the late 1800’s and early 1900’s, there are times that the cross appears. It appears in some church buildings, not frequently, but occasionally there’s-

John Bytheway: 15:45 In our Latter-day Saints churches?

Dr. John Hilton III: 15:47 Correct. In Latter-day Saint church buildings.

John Bytheway: 15:50 I wanted to make sure. I saw this illustration in your book, on the spine of a European printed Doctrine and Covenants and what was there on the spine.

Dr. John Hilton III: 15:59 Yeah. On the 1852 Doctrine and Covenants there’s crosses on the spine. And there’s other examples, B. H. Roberts of the Seventy as a cross on his tombstone. Several Latter-day Saints, both men and women, posed for formal photographs wearing crosses or cross earrings. And just to be clear, I’m not suggesting that we need to all go out and buy cross necklaces or anything. It’s just interesting to see, historically, there wasn’t a stigma with it.

Dr. John Hilton III: 16:27 In the 1950s through the ’70s, there were a couple of statements from Church leaders that suggest that it would be in poor taste for members to wear a cross. No one ever forbids it, it’s never forbidden, there’s no commandment saying don’t do it. But I think that’s where we really get this cultural aversion to the cross.

Dr. John Hilton III: 16:46 And of course in 1975, President Hinckley tells a story where he’s taking a Protestant minister through the Mesa Arizona Temple and the minister says, “Well, if you’re a Christian Church, how come I don’t see a cross in this Temple?” And President Hinckley says, “Well, for us, the cross is a symbol of the dying Lord and we worship the living Christ.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 17:08 So, I think that those kinds of things would be what maybe some listeners are thinking about right now is, “Well, yeah, of course we don’t use the cross and maybe the crucifixion isn’t as important because we worship the living Christ.”

John Bytheway: 17:19 I think where you’re going, this is an important discussion because it affects the doctrine, which is what’s most important. What are we understanding about the Savior and the Atonement, and let’s not have this symbol and cultural changes with the symbol change our doctrine and to shy away from the crucifixion. Am I reading you right?

Dr. John Hilton III: 17:43 Exactly. So you can wear a cross. You can not wear a cross. You can love it, not like it. Great. But let’s not let that distract us. In fact, in the same talk from President Hinckley that we were just referring to, he says, “We must never forget the price Christ paid Calvary.” And so, that’s so important.

John Bytheway: 18:03 I, just earlier this week, was teaching my class and I was in 3 Nephi 27 and I thought, “Oh, John will love this,” I’m sure you know which one I’m talking about. But you know, this is that chapter where the disciples are meeting and, “What should we call the church?” And Jesus appears and, “How be it my church save it be called in my name?” But listen to verse 13 and 14, “Behold, I have given unto you my gospel. And this is my gospel which I have given unto you, that I came into the world to do the will of my Father, because my Father sent me. And my Father sent me that I might be lifted up upon the cross; and that after I had been lifted up upon the cross, that I might draw all men unto me, that as I have been lifted up by men, even so should men be lifted up by the Father to stand before me to be judged of their works, whether they be good, or whether they be evil–“

John Bytheway: 18:57 And I could go on, but I thought, “Look at that. John, I’m sure loves this verse,” and kind of, “Look, here’s the Savior Himself saying, this is important.

Dr. John Hilton III: 19:09 And just with that, as I initially was finding this out and I would share it in small groups and test out the ideas I was working on, someone said, “Well, maybe the reason why people focus on the cross is that it was when,” they say people like Christians generally, “focus on the cross because it was a public experience, that Gethsemane was more of a private experience so fewer people know about it.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 19:33 But then I thought, “Oh, okay.” But then I thought, well, actually Jesus Christ describes His experience in Gethsemane one time in Doctrine and Covenants 19. But on more than twenty occasions in scripture, He talks about His death. Just like the verse that you just read. And so if anyone knows a lot about both Gethsemane and Calvary, it’s the Savior. And He, Himself is personally emphasizing over and over again that He was crucified for our sins. That being lifted up on the cross, draws us to Him.

Hank Smith: 20:06 There are so many… And all of a sudden, all these references are coming to mind like, I think in Nephi’s vision he said, “I saw Him lifted up on the cross.” It says nothing about Gethsemane, not that it’s not important, again. But he talks about the cross when the Savior talks to Nicodemus, He says the serpent, Moses’ serpent in the wilderness story and says He’ll be lifted up.

Hank Smith: 20:28 I wonder if, as we sometimes want to differentiate ourselves from mainstream Christianity, that we said, “Well, they have the cross, that’s theirs. We’ll take Gethsemane, that’s going to be ours.” Right? “That’s how we’re going to be different.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 20:45 And maybe that was important in the 1960s or ’70s. That might’ve been needed at some time. But that’s not what I hear our church leader saying today. I don’t hear an Us vs Them mentality. It’s, “Let’s have all good . . . unite”. And maybe on that, if we just could take a missionary moment and I’d love to hear your guys’ experiences. When I was a full-time missionary in Colorado, if I saw someone wearing a cross, it was kind of like, “Oh, that’s like other, they’re different.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 21:12 Whereas, now if I was a missionary and I saw someone wearing a cross, I’d be so excited. I go up to them, “Hey, I see that you believe in Jesus! This is incredible. I’ve got this book here. And Jesus Himself says, ‘My Father sent me that I might be lifted up upon the cross.’ Let’s talk about our mutual feelings of excitement about the Savior’s sacrifice on Calvary.”

Hank Smith: 21:31 Right? Someone is publicly declaring themselves to be a Christian and we’re like, “Oh, no. How weird.” Where now we’d be more, you’re right John, I’d be excited. I love to see the cross. And from our discussion, and people are just getting your book, but I’ve had these discussions with you for a long time now. And I get more and more excited to see people with the symbol of the cross, announcing who they believe in.

John Bytheway: 22:00 We will be having Dr. Robert Millet on the podcast at one point. I know he wrote a book called What Happened to the Cross and Other Doctrines, but I think they chose that as a title. And I was so intrigued because I thought, I had never seen anybody saying don’t use a cross. But I remember in kind of . . . what would you say? Common knowledge or conventional thinking? “Well, we are all about the living Christ,” and so forth. And I remembered something that Robert Millet had taught me, because he had done a lot of writing and thinking about the doctrine of grace. And he said at one time he asked his dad, “Well, don’t we believe in grace?” And his father said, “No, because the Baptist’s do.”

John Bytheway: 22:45 And since that time we’ve seen a lot of helpful discussion about, “What did Nephi mean in 2 Nephi 25:23?” And Brother Brad Wilcox’s talk, His Grace is Sufficient… All sorts of things to say, “Wait a minute. This has always been what’s in the Book of Mormon.”

John Bytheway: 23:05 I like to tell my students, “Hey, we’ve only had this book for less than 200 years. We’re still learning what’s in our own revelation,” kind of. And do you think that, we just mentioned, that it’s differentiating ourselves? But I’m right with you, I see somebody with a cross and I go, “Wow. They believe in Jesus. Isn’t that great.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 23:23 And I think, John, you shared with me earlier as well, some experiences you’ve had listening to Christian talk radio. I don’t know if you want to share anything about that?

John Bytheway: 23:31 Yeah, I have. And, and condemning those who are offended by the cross and put us in that group.

Dr. John Hilton III: 23:38 Yeah, this is an area where we don’t need to have… There doesn’t need to be any friction. We totally believe that Jesus Christ died for our sins. In fact, that verse that you quoted earlier, Hank, from 1 Nephi 11, “I Nephi saw that Christ was lifted up on the cross, and slain for the sins of the world.” So there’s no doubt that this is actually a bridge-building point for us and other Christians.

Hank Smith: 24:00 John, maybe one reason… And I can see this in myself, is that part of the Come, Follow Me Manual this week talks about “Jesus Christ Accomplished a Perfect Atonement.” I have little ones and maybe it’s my aversion to violence that I can focus on Gethsemane and maybe not on the cross. How do you as a father, how do you go about teaching the cross to your children without… I don’t know? Do you find it might be emotionally scarring? Like, “All right. Let’s all sit down and watch the Passion of the Christ together?” Right? How do you teach it in a way that it’s true to it, but yet not too graphic, what’s age appropriate.

Dr. John Hilton III: 24:46 And this is just one experience, when I was a young father, we had the gospel art kit and we’d flip through the pages and I would always flip past the crucifixion and just jump from Gethsemane to the Resurrection. And I remember my son saying like, “What’s that like, go back to that.” And he was really curious and interested in the crucifixion image.

Dr. John Hilton III: 25:05 And I’m sad that I didn’t take advantage of that opportunity to teach my son because it was a teachable moment that I was more worried about than he was. I’m not saying that all crucifixion imagery is important or even appropriate for children of all ages. I do wonder if maybe there’s some times that we maybe miss an opportunity to teach.

Hank Smith: 25:28 A little too cautious.

Dr. John Hilton III: 25:29 Yeah. Maybe so?

Hank Smith: 25:30 Is that your son that’s on a mission now?

Dr. John Hilton III: 25:32 Yeah, exactly.

John Bytheway: 25:33 Well, you did okay John. You did okay.

Dr. John Hilton III: 25:35 Hopefully it didn’t scar him too much. One other thing just to think about, I remember President Eyring one time saying something to the effect of, we need to take advantage of opportunities to teach small children. That they’re at their most teachable phase prior to eight years of age. And so in some ways, what better time to help route in their hearts the power of Christ’s atoning sacrifice in Gethsemane and on Calvary.

Dr. John Hilton III: 26:05 Just recently a friend showed me something that her son who’s five years old had made, and it was a picture of the crucifixion. And her son had made Jesus smiling on the cross. And she said, “Oh, why is Jesus smiling?” And her son said, “Because He’s so happy to sacrifice for you and me.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 26:21 So I do think that at least some little children, and every parent’s going to know their own child best, some little children–it may be helpful. Definitely, maybe not watching the Passion of the Christ, but to see some of these other images and to talk about it and to read some scriptures together, I think could be a very spiritually powerful opportunity.

John Bytheway: 26:40 Also I think something, John, that parents could do… And I forgot about this, is that you talk about the crucifixion symbolism in the gospel around us, right? In the gospel our children are already experiencing. Tell us about the connections you’ve made there, with just the gospel that our children are already experiencing?

Dr. John Hilton III: 26:59 Well, I mean, one for example is the ordinance of baptism. So in Romans, Chapter 6, Paul makes it very clear that baptism is a symbol of the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ. So, that’s an opportunity to talk about the total commitment that Jesus Christ manifested to each of us. He was so all-in, He gave His life for us.

Dr. John Hilton III: 27:20 Or the sacrament is another opportunity where Jesus said, “Eat this bread in remembrance of the body, which I laid down for you.” We see that in our recent Come, Follow Me and Doctrine and Covenants, Section 27, “And my blood, which was shed for you.” And in the scriptures, the phrase “shedding of blood” always refers to death, it’s the death of an animal or in this case the death of the Savior.

Dr. John Hilton III: 27:46 One little nugget in 1 Corinthians chapter 11, Paul is talking about the crucifixion and the sacrament. And he says that, as often as you take the sacrament you shew… And it’s spelled S-H-E-W, it’s a weird word. You read it and you’re like, “What does that word mean?” Well, if you look up, it means to proclaim or testify of. So he says, “As often as you take the sacrament, you are publicly testifying of the death of Christ.” And I think that’s another really, not every day, but every week an opportunity to think about and commemorate the Savior’s sacrifice.

John Bytheway: 28:21 I was telling my kids that I think of the sacrament table not only as a reminder of the Last Supper, so it’s like a table of communion. But also as an altar, because we’re remembering the body and the blood of Christ there. And I don’t know if that’d stand up to Correlation, but I think of both of those ideas. Here’s the priests breaking bread in front of us and the fact that the way we do that is in the front of the room, every week for everyone to see while we sing a sacrament hymn. That he was bruised and broken and torn for us on Calvary’s Hill. I mean, is that Hymn 181? And why then? Why while we’re singing? I think that all means something to help us remember His death and He died for us. But I love that it’s kind of both, it’s the Last Supper and it’s an altar. And like I said, I don’t know if that would pass Correlation, but it went well in our own little Home Evening lesson.

Dr. John Hilton III: 29:33 John, with that thought that you just said about it’s both, going back to the idea of, “Well wait, don’t we really just worship the living Christ?” And I think that we… I don’t think I know we 100% do worship the living Christ. At the same time we also worship the loving Christ. And Jesus Christ Himself personally defined His greatest act of love. As His crucifixion He said, “Greater love has no one than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” That same idea is found in the Book of Mormon-

Dr. John Hilton III: 30:03 … and lay down his life for his friends. That same idea is found in the Book of Mormon as well. So to me it’s not an either or. It’s not, well, we either have the living Christ or the loving Christ. It’s both. You can’t have one without the other.

Hank Smith: 30:15 This is wonderful. John, first weirdos out there who really like just information, I want to learn, did you learn anything in your writing about the act of crucifixion itself that you didn’t know before?

Dr. John Hilton III: 30:30 I actually remember one day I was just eating lunch with some colleagues and it just dawned on me that everything I knew about crucifixion came from movies, primarily The Lamb of God and The Testaments, because those are some of the only movies that I had seen that had crucifixion imagery in it. And I thought, “I’m pretty sure that there’s a whole science around this.” And there have. I mean, thousands of pages have been written about what we know from Archeology. One or two little interesting details is I’ve always seen this image and probably a lot of you have seen it as well, where Jesus is nailed to the cross and the thieves on either side are tied to the cross. And I’ve had people ask, “Well, why were the thieves tied but Jesus was nailed?” And of course that picture is just based on the artist’s imagination.

Dr. John Hilton III: 31:13 In reality, both nails and ropes were used in crucifixions. So it could have been either or. We know that in the Savior’s case, he was nailed to the cross because of the prints in His hands and his feet. Another interesting detail is that the best evidence suggests that crosses were much smaller than we sometimes think of. Occasionally in a movie, you’ll see like a pulley system and they’re like hoisting up the cross really high. But oftentimes it appears that the cross was maybe only a foot, maybe two feet taller than the person who’s being crucified. Which has a different effect if you think about your eye level with the crucifixion. And so when you’re there at the cross and Jesus says these powerful seven final statements, it’s not that He’s distant and far away. If you’re near the cross, you’re almost at eye level with Him.

Hank Smith: 32:04 Wow. Did this happen often, John? Did the Romans invent crucifixion? Is this something that I should even ask?

Dr. John Hilton III: 32:14 No, it’s a great question. So the historical origins of crucifixion are a little bit murky. Clearly the Romans perfected the practice. The Greeks and maybe the Persians before them have some type of crucifixion. And any of the kingdoms before that are impaling people. So something that’s similar to a crucifixion has been happening for centuries before. But clearly the Romans the way that we think of crucifixion perfect the practice, if we could use that terrible term. But yeah. And a lot of times I think people don’t want . . . I’m kind of shying away from this topic because I think probably a lot of listeners are about, “Like, let’s turn this off right now kids. Let’s move on.”

Hank Smith: 32:55 It’s a little murky.

Dr. John Hilton III: 32:57 But you know, we hope that Jesus Christ understands our pain. Don’t we? We talk about, “Well, the Savior understands our pain.” We’re never going to understand the pain He experienced in atoning for our sins, but we can understand a little bit about the physical realities of crucifixion. So maybe since we want Him to understand our pain, it might not be too much for us to understand His pain.

Hank Smith: 33:19 Oh, John, I’ve never thought of that and I love you for that. You ever had moments, John, by the way, where you think, “I’m never going to forget that?”

Dr. John Hilton III: 33:29 Yeah.

Hank Smith: 33:29 I want Him to understand my pain, why don’t I try to understand His as best I can, right? As best I can?

John Bytheway: 33:36 Like you said before, Hank, there’s an aversion to violence. It’s hard to tell your little tender hearts and minds in your children, “This is what they did to people.” Because why would you do that to someone? And so I can understand that. And on the other hand, I like the way you put that, John, that we need to understand what He went through as an expression of love and patience with us.

Dr. John Hilton III: 34:07 And we’re talking from maybe our perspective and I don’t know all the intimate details of your lives in your children’s eyes, but my guess is all of us are relatively sheltered. However, some people have experienced terrible tragedies in their life. Victims of horrific abuse.

Hank Smith: 34:23 Dark, terrible things. Yeah.

Dr. John Hilton III: 34:25 And I remember reading the account of one woman who had, she had experienced horrible betrayal. And she felt alone, abandoned. Therapy didn’t help. And she said that in one moment of her darkest hours she saw Christ on the cross in her mind, but it wasn’t the Sunday School image, it wasn’t Jesus with a bit of blood, it was the real deal that she saw. Like the truly anguished suffering Christ. And that’s when she realized, “This Jesus understands me.” So maybe for some of us the scarred up Jesus, it is a terrible image and we can’t look at it. But there might be some people for whom it’s an image of comfort and solidarity and says, “Okay, this person really understands me.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 35:07 You both, I know you both have a read Corrie ten Boom’s book, The Hiding Place. One of the sad things that she describes while she’s in the Nazi prison camp is how the prisoners are forced to strip down every week and the guards inspect them and it’s humiliating. And then all of a sudden she has a realization that Jesus was probably naked when He was on the cross. We don’t depict that in artwork, but that seems to be most likely the custom of what happened at the time. And then all of a sudden she didn’t feel ashamed anymore. And again, that’s an image that we don’t really want to talk about and dwell on, but for someone who’s in a very difficult dark place, that moment was powerful for her. And so I think that, yes, we want to be cautious and careful, but there may be some for whom the full understanding of what Christ experienced could actually be healing.

John Bytheway: 35:58 Well, and I think of the phrase that I think is in your book as well is “That He descended below all things.” And this helps us to know that no matter what we’ve been through, He is descended below all things and it’s hard to talk about, but as you said, yeah, somebody can say, “He will know how I feel.”

Hank Smith: 36:24 You know, all of this has made me think of this quote from Joseph Smith that I’ve always loved. Listen to this. He says,  “The things of God are of deep import. And time and experience and careful and ponderous and solemn thoughts can only find them out. Thy mind, oh man, if that will lead a soul on to salvation,” that’s what we all want to do here. We want to lead souls unto salvation. “Must stretch as high as the utmost heavens,” and then this part, John, from what you’ve talked about. This is difficult to discuss. It’s difficult to go and look at this.

Hank Smith: 36:58 But he says, ” and you must search into and contemplate the darkest abyss. You must search into and contemplate the darkest abyss and the broad expanse of eternity. Thou must commune with God,” he says. And to me, as you were talking about, this is a difficult thing to go into but there are people who experienced these dark abyss type things in life and the savior’s there. He’s there with them. So I think you’ve given me insight after insight after insight here. Is there anything else on the crucifixion, John, before we, we want to talk about the resurrection of Christ, of course, because that’s our Easter message. But is there anything else that you feel like our listeners could benefit from talking about the crucifixion?

Dr. John Hilton III: 37:49 For me one of that lesser known characters is this Barabbas Who it’s kind of the choice is between Jesus and Barabbas. And I’m here thinking like, “Well, duh, it’s obvious choose Jesus.” Right? Like this is a no brainer. But if we maybe go back and think about historical context, many of the Jewish people don’t like the Roman authorities. They want an insurrection, they want a rebellion. And that’s actually why Barabbas has been arrested. He’s a revolutionary, right? He’s a rebel against Rome. And so maybe some of the people in the crowd are thinking to themselves, “Jesus seems like a nice guy, but what’s He really doing to overthrow Rome?” Barabbas like this guy is on the front lines. Like, “Maybe we should get him out of there and he’ll help us.”

Dr. John Hilton III: 38:33 And I think that for me in my life, I can liken this to, am I seeking for spiritual salvation or a temporal salvation? Maybe in some ways in my life I have a choice between Jesus and Barabbas. A choice between a spiritual approach with Jesus and a worldly approach with Pilate. And sometimes my tendency is to just go with, “Okay, well, great. This is what the world is saying.” Versus, “No, no, no, there’s something that’s more important here. Even though I’ve got this kind of special goal, my goal might not be focused in the right area, how can I align that to Jesus?” That’s a little lesson that for me has always stuck out with Barabbas.

John Bytheway: 39:14 What are some of your, Hank, John, what are some of your favorite lessons to-

Hank Smith: 39:17 That’s excellent. I had an experience just this last month. Some people who follow me on social media might know that I’ve just had to deal with plenty of deaths lately. And I’m a pretty happy guy just in general, but it’s been, yeah, it’s been a load to carry and someone, a friend who was texting me, maybe it was you, John, was it you that said, even Jesus, someone-

Dr. John Hilton III: 39:47 Yeah, it was me.

Hank Smith: 39:47 It was you. Even Jesus had someone carry His cross for a while. And that really struck me. It really did. I’m still not going to let you help, but it struck me that there could be a lesson there of allowing someone to help you with your burden. Even Jesus the greatest of all allowed someone to help Him.

Dr. John Hilton III: 40:11 Yeah. And it’s especially a powerful thing. Like Jesus created Simon, right? Like Jesus is the creator of the world and for the creator to let his creation help Him. Wow. That’s powerful.

Hank Smith: 40:21 Yeah. And to me it’s very humbling because I know we focus on being a self-reliant people. Right? We are self-reliant, self-reliant. But maybe Jesus wants us to see this moment of, there are times when it’s okay. It’s okay to hand this burden off. And I’ve had awesome friends, awesome Simons in my life who have come to just take a burden away from me and it’s been really beautiful. It makes me want to do that for others when I can.

Dr. John Hilton III: 40:51 Well, I think that the statements on the cross, the thing that is always to me, I guess it would be the pinnacle, would it be is, “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” As if I didn’t see this one coming. And of all the people that I thought, and Elder Holland has talked about this, that the Father was probably never closer, but somehow, so that his victory would be complete, for that moment–left. And so that he would even know what it was like to feel forsaken in such a dark abyss type of moment. That’s one thing. And then the other thing that I just love to show my students, because it was a, for me, was when Jesus said, “It is finished.” And then in, I think it’s Matthew 27, the JST down below because I always thought I was focused on the suffering and I always thought, “It is finished”. The “it” was about my suffering.

Dr. John Hilton III: 42:02 And He says, “It is finished,” in the JST adds four words, “thy will is done.” And I thought, even then the Savior was focused on doing the Father’s will. And not even His own suffering but on doing the Father’s will. And that part just makes me go, “Wow.” Because I think I’d be focused on my suffering. And He was still focusing on doing the Father’s will. And when you think about what He said primarily, ” Thy will be done.” And now He’s saying, “Thy will is done.” Wow. What a moment for that little JST forward addition just makes me go, “Wow. Even then.” And then when He came to the righteous in the new world, first thing out of his mouth, “I’ve done the will of the Father from the beginning.” I think, “Wow.”

Hank Smith: 42:52 One thing that I’ve taught, as the Savior enters the Garden of Gethsemane, I asked my students when we see Him, He says to His friends, “My soul is exceedingly sorrowful even unto death.” And I’ll ask my students, “When have we ever seen Him like this? When have you ever seen Him like this? In our entire semester studying His life, has He ever been someone to turn to their friend and say, ‘I’m so depressed. I feel like I’m going to die. Something is happening.'” And then He goes forward into the Garden and He falls on His face. And now I’m going to learn to connect this all the way to Calvary. He’s crying out, “God, where are you?”

John Bytheway: 43:34 Dr. Hilton, you said perfectly that we’ll never understand it. Like it’s outside of our scope of understanding. But something is happening that is even mind blowing to Jesus. Something is happening that He has never experienced before. And I think it was Elder Maxwell who said, “Even He with His unique intellect, it was outside of almost His scope of understanding.” And when it hits Him, it is-

Hank Smith: 44:09 He was, “So much amazed.”

John Bytheway: 44:11 [crosstalk 00:44:11] worse. Yeah. He was amazed. What would it take to amaze Jesus? Here’s a being who has seen a lot, done a lot and yet He’s going, “Wow, I’m kind of shocked by the weight of this.” So as much as we, if someone says to me, “Well, what happened in there? What happened? I want to know what happened. I want to know how in this amount of time this happened.” I don’t know. I don’t know. But I can tell you that it was enough to scare the most powerful being that we know of. It was enough to shock and amaze Him.

Dr. John Hilton III: 44:47 I think that’s a really tender point. We talked really about people who are going through really intense struggles. We’ve got the seven statements of Christ on the cross and then the eighth from the Joseph Smith Translation. But in Matthew and Mark, there’s only one statement and it’s the one that you mentioned, “My God-

John Bytheway: 45:03 But in Matthew and Mark, there’s only one statement and it’s the one that you mentioned, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” And that’s where it ends, that’s the end of Christ on the cross. There is no, “It is finished,” in Matthew or Mark. And so I think it’s okay for us to linger a little bit on that despair, the anguish, falling on his face in Gethsemane to know that when we are in a dark moment, he understands. He’s been there, he knows what it’s like to be utterly, completely alone.

John Bytheway: 45:29 I think that maybe our listeners might want to find Elder Holland’s comments. I think the talk is called And None Were With Him, if that rings a bell. And something else, I just want maybe our listeners to … Because it seems like in the gospel accounts that Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John it’s like they were written after the fact. But Jesus talked routinely about, “This is what I’m going to do,” and it seems only the women understood. She’s doing it for my burial. Right? Isn’t that true when they …

John Bytheway: 46:01 And, and it’s like, after the … “Wait a minute, he did say that.” And I think there’s a couple of verses, I just go, “Wow.” Where Jesus says, “Okay,” this is a rough translation, “Let’s go back to Jerusalem. The son of man will be betrayed by hands of sinners and will be crucified,” and he set his face towards Jerusalem. Like, “Okay, let’s go.” And I’m thinking, “I am Jonah,” at that moment. “I am heading to Joppa,” right? “They’re going to do what to me?” And Jesus is like, “Let’s go.” And I think, “Wow, look at the courage.” He knew it was going to be crucified, and he set his face towards Jerusalem. And I think maybe it’s important for listeners to know that maybe even as late as Peter drawing his sword, they were expecting more of a political deliverer.

John Bytheway: 46:51 It’s definitely clear that there were different types of expectations for a Messiah. And at least among many Jewish people, they were expecting a temporal deliverer. So Jesus, the Suffering Savior, that’s not the person they were expecting.

John Bytheway: 47:06 Isn’t it Paul, that talks about, to the Greeks, “This is foolishness. You don’t have a God who dies. That’s not a God who suffers and dies. What kind of a God is that?”

John Bytheway: 47:17 Right. We have like a immortal God. He is amazing, he’s incredible. A criminal dying on a cross. It’s terrible.

John Bytheway: 47:23 That’s so shameful. That couldn’t be a God. Yeah. Well a couple of verses from the Book of Mormon that I’d like to add. I remember one that I can still remember, Elder Neal A. Maxwell some time when I was younger listening in general conference and having him quote this verse, 1 Nephi 19:9. “And the world, because of their iniquity, shall judge him to be a thing of naught; wherefore they scourge him, and he suffereth it. Yea, and they smite him, and he suffereth it. Yea, they spit upon him, and he suffereth it.” And then because, and I love this because I’ve often thought, “What helped him through it? What was deep in his heart that was letting these people do this to him?” And it kind of answers it here, “Because of his loving kindness and his long-suffering towards the children of men.”

John Bytheway: 48:19 And look, he loved us. He’s patient with us. And then Section 19, “I have suffered these things for all that they might not suffer.” That is an incredibly loving message. I would prefer to take this myself than to have you suffer. Isaiah 49 or 1 Nephi 21, “Zion hath said: The Lord has forsaken me, and my Lord hath forgotten me–but he will show that he hath not.  For can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee, O house of Israel. Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands. Thy walls are continually before me.”

Hank Smith: 49:02 So one of the chapters in my book is calledThe Loving Christ.” And if it’s okay, Hank and John, I’d love to just make a free PDF copy of that chapter and put it into the Show Notes, because I think that, that concept of a loving Christ and how that helps build us a bridge with other Christians is really important. Would that be okay? Can we put that in the Show Notes?

John Bytheway: 49:23 Absolutely. If there’s one thing that John Bytheway and Hank Smith love, it’s free stuff. So, we will take it.

John Bytheway: 49:30 And I know I’ve read that there’s different meanings of that graven, but I love to show my students the sign language for Jesus when I read that, which points to the center of the palms one after another, “I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands.” And this is something, John, I’d love your thoughts on, why did Jesus choose to retain the one … I thought resurrected beings were all perfect again.

John Bytheway: 49:57 Yeah. One note on that verse, “I have graven thee on the palms of my hands.” The, thee is singular. It’s you, it’s not you all. And I think that is a powerful moment. He says, “I know you, your name, everything about you graven on the palms of my hands.” And I don’t know all the reasons why the Savior has chosen to retain his resurrection scars, but I think that maybe one reason is because it’s a sacred symbol, both to Him personally and to us of the love that He has.

John Bytheway: 50:28 There’s the Zachariah 12 reference where at the end of Armageddon, is that right? “What are those wounds in your hands? “And he’ll say, “Those with which I was wounded in the house of my friends.” So I’m thinking, “Okay, he’s got to fulfill prophecy. So keep the wounds for that reason.” And then incredibly in the New World invites everyone to come one at a time to feel the wounds. And I think, if I shake your hand, there’s a level of intimacy there, but imagine being invited to feel someone’s wounds and having that one by one experience and what that did to society for the Nephites and the Lamanites is the righteous of the Lamanites and the Nephites.

John Bytheway: 51:16 To have 2,500 witnesses of the crucifixion and resurrection like that, changed society so much we call it 4 Nephi, where they went for so many years with no contention, and Mormon keeps bringing it up, “And there was no contention, and there was no contention, there was no contention.” So I think of that. Another reason to retain that, as you said, John, this is evidence they could touch of his love.

Hank Smith: 51:49 One thing that you made me think of John, just as a side note is the first things he says to the Nephites in 35:11 is, “Thrust your hands into my side.” And others have, have taught me this. I don’t know who, but the idea is that, as John is telling us, the Romans had perfected crucifixion, the Nephites likely wouldn’t have had many points of reference on crucifixion, but they know a mortal wound when they see one. So that mortal wound in his side, he kind of focuses on that because that’s something they would tie to death rather than wounds in hands and feet. So you’ve got to … There’s just an interesting play there where the Savior’s saying, “You probably don’t understand crucifixion. You will one day. So let me just show you this wound in my side.” And Nephites would know, that’s a fatal wound, right? Versus those in your hands and your feet.

John Bytheway: 52:44 I have a question for both of you, and this is a little off the cuff, so that’s okay. And let’s use this to wrap up Episode 1. We often talk about the Atonement and the crucifixion, and they are amazing and wonderful. There’s this question in the Come, Follow Me Manual that I think brings it back to an individual and it’s this, how can I tell if his Atonement is having an effect in my life? Right?

John Bytheway: 53:14 So we’ve got this beautiful, massive thing that is just  incomprehensible to us, but I want it to work into my life. So if someone were to come to either of you and ask that question, I love what you’ve taught me about the Atonement. I love how amazing it is, now, help me get it into my daily walk in life. What would you say?

Hank Smith: 53:37 In John chapter 12, Jesus says, “When I am lifted up, I will draw all people unto me.” And so I think that is one indication. Am I feeling closer to Jesus Christ? For me personally, studying Christ’s death has changed my life. And I can’t quantify all the ways that that’s happened, but I’m just a little kinder. I think about Jesus a little bit more. And as you know, when you’re thinking about Jesus, it’s hard to be angry.

Hank Smith: 54:04 We should study more of every aspect of the Savior’s life. I think studying his Atonement in particular helps us to think of him more. And as we are, the Spirit is with us more. And we just feel a closer connection to the Savior. And to me, that would be one indication. I’m feeling the Holy Ghost, that is an indication that the Atonement is working in your life.

John Bytheway: 54:25 So yeah, what I hear you saying, John is, “Hey, I don’t know how it’s going to work, but I do know that if you study this, it will work. It will work. You might not feel the exact moment where you became different, but over a long period of time, you will see this, over a period of time.”

Hank Smith: 54:44 President Nelson’s invitation to study all the references to Jesus Christ in the Topical Guide, and he does this and says, “I am a new man. I’m a changed person.” I mean, now that’s incredible. And I think we’re going to see similar changes in our own lives and we’ll feel it. And that’s the Atonement helping us to change and to draw closer to Christ as we study him more.

John Bytheway: 55:05 Excellent. I think that that is so wise. I would say this, put yourself in experiences where the Holy Ghost can be present, because the Holy Ghost to me in scripture is almost the vehicle by which this beautiful Atonement can get into your heart, mind, and soul and weave itself into your being. All right? So if you are feeling the Holy Ghost, like you said, John, I think that’s an indication that the Atonement is working in your life. And so to me, when I use that as kind of a gauge, I don’t want to lose the Spirit. Because if I lose the Spirit, I lose the effects of the Atonement in my life. It’s not just, “Well, I’ve lost the Holy Ghost for a little while.” No, I do not want to lose the effects of the Atonement in my life.

John Bytheway: 55:54 I want it to be working on me, maybe even faster than it does, please. Right? Like, let’s get this going. But I want to put myself in places where the Holy Ghost will have an opportunity to come into my heart and mind even more powerfully than maybe I already have it, because that means that the Atonement is working in my life even more so. Again, I don’t know how. I wish I could explain that the ins and outs of it all. I wish I could say, “This is how the Atonement changes you and makes you and perfects you.” And then it’s a beautiful idea. I don’t know how it works, but I know that it works. John, by the way, what would you say? How can I tell if the Atonement is having effect in my life?

Hank Smith: 56:38 I’m just right in line with you. There’s a David O. McKay quote, “What you sincerely think in your heart of Christ will determine what you are, will largely determined what your thoughts will be.” And I think he said, “No one can study divine personality without becoming conscious of an uplifting and refining influence within himself,” and that’s what I was thinking. As you were saying that John, is that you’re different when you’re thinking about him and, and his love for us and what he did, and of all the things we could talk about, I just love when the Wentworth Letter went out, well, I know there’s all these different things we can talk about, but what are the First Principles? And the first thing is faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ. And thank you for writing it that way. That’s the first thing. And we become conscious of that influence, as we think about it and think about it every day.

John Bytheway: 57:39 Yeah. I would say, as I have found the Atonement working in my life, one question for me personally is, do I feel like I want to repent? That’s an indication to me. Do I feel like I … I just, I want to repent some more, please give me a chance to repent some more, because that seems to follow faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, right, John?

John Bytheway: 57:57 Mm-hmm (affirmative).

Hank Smith: 57:58 Second repentance. So if you are feeling like, “I need to repent.” Now, I don’t know about either of you, but it’s hard to find things to repent of, because I just-

John Bytheway: 58:08 For you, Hank. For sure. It’s hard to [crosstalk 00:58:10]-

Hank Smith: 58:10 It is. It is difficult.

John Bytheway: 58:11 I understand. I understand in your case.

Hank Smith: 58:12 Yes, but if I search, I can usually find something.

John Bytheway: 58:17 I’m thinking of that story in the New Testament, I mean, it all came out of a focus on the Law of Moses, but that story, “What lack I yet?” I’m like, “Oh, sure. That is not my … I’m pretty stumped here, Lord. I thought about it and thought, What in the world? I can’t think of one thing.” I’m just like, “Oh, sure. Get me a yellow pad and leave me alone.”

Hank Smith: 58:41 Can you imagine? If I asked that of Jesus, he’d say, “Do you want it alphabetically, chronologically? How do you want this list? We can have a delivered: Volume 1, Volume 2?”

John Bytheway: 58:52 I know. I’m imagining, did you really just say what lack I yet? I just, and so Hank, when you said that, you feel like you want to repent, you know what came to mind? King Benjamin’s speech. What was the impact? We have no more disposition to do evil. We just want to do good continually. And I always ask my students, do you think that was permanent? And my personal opinion is, no. You’ve had that feeling. You felt that at general conference-

Hank Smith: 59:19 I’m never going to sin again.

John Bytheway: 59:20 You’re like this, “That was a great talk. Thank you, Elder Holland.” And you’re so fired up, but then you got to go back to school. You got to go back to work. And so you keep coming back where that spirit is. You keep coming back where the Savior’s influence is to keep coming back to that, that good feeling of, “I just want to do better. I want to repent.” 

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